When It’s Good, It’s Great. When It’s Bad… 

I used to think I wasn’t good enough. Continuously spent sleepless days and nights trying to make me “perfect”. I craved your approval and felt hopeless without it. I tried to adjust to your guidelines, your likes and dislikes. In the end, still you weren’t satisfied. What was it about me that wasn’t good enough? I consumed myself in you. You were all I knew, my every step, my every breath, my happiness, my sadness. Still, I wouldn’t have traded it for anything in the world. Tell me something- What was your definition of perfection though? I can only be one person- ME. Nothing more, nothing less. Point blank period.
It was a tough time in my life I thought I’d never be able to overcome. It took so much energy out of me to find myself again. I’ve been into guys before… but nothing like this. It was bitter sweet. It’s like when things were good, they were great. But when things were bad, they were horrible. I ran out patience trying to find answers and comb through every situation. How would you feel if you were at fault for every wrong and all your rights held no weight? You wouldn’t like it… I didn’t think so. I think back to all the issues and obstacles we encountered. I do not regret any of it, but we should have used our time a little more wisely. The difference between the two of us that motivates me is how different we are.
I am not perfect and never will be. I accept my mistakes, own up to them, and correct them. That’s what sets me apart from you. My friend, if they do a better job than me… I applaud you! Don’t do what you did to me to them and I won’t do what I did to you to them✌🏽️

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